It’s strange…I’m most inspired when I’m deeply sad. Sorrow comes settling into the crevices of my heart and.. it makes me just feel.
I like it.
Because believe me, I’ve been numb for what seems like forever to me.
There’s nothing quite like this gentle but deep sadness all at once.
So, today I turn 22. I don’t feel too old though, I guess that’s a good sign. :)
It’s been a great birthday so far, I’ve relaxed and kicked back eating all my favorite foods to then later go have desert at one of my favorite restaurants. :D My presents are kick ass too! I’m so thankful for everything.
I appreciate everything, don’t get me wrong….all of the birthday wishes are very kind. But it’s just funny to see how now a days we can’t even sincerely wish someone a happy birthday. Some people don’t even bother to actually spell it out, as if they’re doing you a favor by doing something as simple as wishing you well.
Most of the people on Facebook only do it just to do it, not because they mean it…almost as if it’s something they forcefully have to do, not want to. So they take 3 seconds to type “HBD” which isn’t even a word, mind you.
Excuse me, I’m not asking you to wish me a “happy birthday”, you don’t have to lol. How can you pretend to show you even give a fuck when you don’t even care to spell out 2 words for someone? Lmao, this is just so funny to me.
Take this for example,
……..yes, “Birthday” indeed.
My lady friend and myself decided to go watch a movie.. there’s a short walk to the theater after our T-stop so we cross the street and head that direction. On that side of the street there is a man with loud speakers and a microphone “preaching”. As we’re walking by (I guess he assumed we were together) he says, “It’s un-natural. Two women together is unnatural.. the day of rapture is coming…blah blah blah” After that I tuned him out. My friend and I looked at each other thinking the same thing.
In that moment I wanted to turn to him and say; You know what else is unnatural?? Wearing clothes is unnatural. Getting a haircut is unnatural, motherfucking shaving is unnatural, sitting in a pedestal thinking you have the right to judge others and point dirty fingers sure as fuck isn’t natural and it isn’t right. So what makes you better than anyone??
I wanted so badly to do this but I didn’t want to dent my evening by wasting my time on someone who is clearly, not worth it. Instead I stopped, grabbed my friend’s hand and walked right pass him. I think this simple gesture said a little more than what I could put into words at that moment..